Chapter 47

The next morning Kim woke up before Jon. Smiling she turned and watched him sleeping. His hair was all tousled and his arms were wrapped firmly around her. God, she just loved him!

She sighed softly. Hopefully she didn’t disappoint him last night. When they could finally talk again after their love making in the hot tube, they had some champagne and fed each other with some chocolate covered strawberries.

After a while the hot water in combination with the alcohol was getting to her, so she decided to cool of under the outdoor shower. Just when she’d stepped under the refreshing spray, she could feel  Jon pressing himself against her back. He kissed her neck and shoulders gently and wrapped her arms around her waist.

She snuggled a little closer to him and enjoined the closeness between them.

“Lean forward, honey.” He whispered softly in her ear. She froze, she couldn’t move. She didn’t mind doing it again already, even though she was sure she wouldn’t be able to walk the next day, but the thought of him standing behind her just upset her. She didn’t feel comfortable with that idea.

“Kimi?” he asked when she didn’t move. Slowly she turned around in his arms and looked at him.

“Jon, I can’t.” she whispered nervously. He paused shortly.

“I understand…it was too much today.” He kissed her softly.

“No, that’s not what I mean.” Kim pushed him away a bit. He frowned irritated.

“I…well, I mean you…uhm…behind me…that’s uhm…I don’t feel comfortable with it.” She finally admitted.

“Oh, honey…that’s ok, really...I didn’t know.” Jon pulled her close and let his fingers ran through her wet hair.

“When you don’t like it, we don’t do it.” He assured her.

She was relieved that he took it so well, but this morning she was thinking that she might have been a little coward. Maybe it wouldn’t have been so bad.

Jon stirred in his sleep and moved lightly away from her. Carefully she freed herself from him and slipped off the bed. Before entering the bathroom Kim ordered some breakfast and coffee.

When she was enjoying the warmth of the water, her mind drifted back to last night. He wasn’t really disappoint when she told him off. Or maybe he just covered it up very well. She sighed and dropped her head forward so the spray could massage her neck and shoulders. Just when she was about to step off the shower, Jon’s hands slipped around her waist.

“Why didn’t you wake me, honey? We could have showered together.” He asked while nuzzling at her neck. She smiled softly at his gentleness.

“I thought you’d like to sleep a little longer.” She told him and let her hands glide over his firm chest. “Besides I needed to think.”

Jon frowned lightly and stopped her hands from roaming over his body.

“About what?” he asked irritated.

Please don’t tell me she’s having second thoughts now?

“About last night.” She answered a little embarrassed with her eyes still glued to his chest. She just couldn’t get herself to look him in the eye.

“Kimi, what are you talking about?” he tilted her chin softly to look her in the eye. She sighed and a light blush was creeping into her face.

“I mean, me telling you to stop under the shower…I…” she started, but Jon interrupted her.

“Whoa, wait a second, honey.” Gently he framed her face with his hands. “I told you it’s fine. I would feel terrible if you did something you don’t feel comfortable with just because of me.”

Kim was blushing even more and tried to take a step back from him, but Jon didn’t let her this time. Instead he wrapped his arms tightly around her.

“Kimi, this is all still new for you. It takes some time to get comfortable with it.” He kissed her temple softly. “And maybe in a couple months you feel different about it and wanna try it out.”

She smiled shortly. “Or maybe you’ll never try it, but honey both is completely 100% fine with me.” Jon assured her while looking into her blue eyes.

“Ok?”

 “Yeah.” Kim said and kissed him thankfully.

“Good, how about we get our day started now. We have to fly back later today.” Jon reminded her.

“Right, and we still need to walk around the lake.” Kim said and hurried to get out of the shower.

After their breakfast they left their lodge and started their walk around the lake. The surroundings of the Resort were simply beautiful. The mountains with their trees were still dowsed in soft fog and the purl of the creek was the only sound that was accompanying them on their way.

From time to time Kim stopped and took pictures of this unreal world. She really wished she could stay longer here with Jon. Here they both weren’t busy. Here she didn’t have to worry about media attention. Here they could just walk hand in hand and enjoy being together.

After they had rounded the better part of the lake, Kim spotted an old wine barrel with a picnic basket right on the lake’s edge.

“Well, that would have been a good idea.” Kim said. It was already lunch time and she was getting a little hungry.

“True.” Jon answered and walked over to the barrel to pick up one of the wine bottles which sat in a basket on top of it and opened it.

“Jon what are you doing?” Kim asked astonished. Someone would probably show up any minute to enjoy the picnic.

“I’m preparing the wine for our lunch, honey.” He answered grinning

“You ordered the picnic.” She asked surprised. He nodded.

“Yep, I have to make sure you get enough to eat, right. Come on sit down with me, honey.” He padded the blanket which he spread out on the grass.

“You are sweet.” Kim said while sitting down next to him.

“Shhh, don’t ruin my reputation.”

Kim laughed out loud. “Well, I think your fans don’t see the super hard rock star in you anyway.”

Jon looked at her puzzled. She grinned and tasted a piece of cheese slowly, making him wait for an explanation even longer.

“Why do you think that?” he finally asked while watching her swallowing slowly.

“Well, the internet is full of fan-pages and forums. Quite interesting.”

He starred at her. “You googled me?”

“Yes, do you mind?” Kim set her glass of wine down again. Maybe she should have told him earlier, but it hadn’t been a big deal for her. Actually Fran suggested it, when she asked her a couple things about the band.

“Well, you could have asked me. I already told you that.” Jon said a bit angry. Kim sighed and carefully reached for his hand. He tensed lightly, but didn’t pull away.

“Jon…” she waited until he reluctantly turned his head to her. “…first of all I wouldn’t had any idea what to ask you. I didn’t follow your and the band’s carrier and success. And you guys did so much over the years, there are so many tours and shows, so many things that are special not only to the band but also to the fans.”

He nodded agreeing. “Yeah, I was curious why all those women out there are so damn attracted to you.” Kim continued. Jon chuckled lightly. “If the same things that attract me, also get to them….”

“And?” Jon asked curious.

“And I can tell you that they really like it when you shake your ass.” Kim said laughing. Jon shook his head grinning.

“But they love it that you are such a family man, and that you even managed after the divorce to have a great relationship with your kids and with Dorothea…and they love your philanthropic work. You are not a super star, who forgot where he came from, you realize that others didn’t have such luck in their lives as you had.”

Jon swallowed hard. “Maybe I should goggle myself from time to time.” He whispered a little overwhelmed. Kim placed a soft kiss on his cheek and let her hand travel through his hair.

“Maybe you should…but then you would also read that you are a demanding perfectionist, who has a temper problem and easily explodes.” Kim chuckled softly, when Jon groaned in frustration.