Chapter 110

“Did you like the show?” Jon asked giving her a kiss while laying down next to her in bed the other night.

“Yeah. I loved it.” She whispered. A shiver ran down her spin when Jon leaned in again and gave her a long passionate kiss. She sighed when they parted.

“Jon…”

“I know, hon.” He said and tried to turn away from her.

“NO!” she nearly screamed the word out. He stopped his motion a little shocked and looked at her again.

They were getting closer again since she was in London, but they didn’t have any intercourse yet. Jon tried to be patient once again. He knew the incident with Nigel was still very present for her. Sometimes she was still fighting him in her dreams at night.

Kim looked at him with unsure eyes. She looked cute all snuggled into this huge pillow and with the blanket nearly pulled up to her nose. He knew she was wearing an oversized shirt of his under it and comfortable pyjama bottoms.

She swallowed hard and stared at the ceiling for a few seconds.

“Kim…it’s ok…really…” Jon started, but was interrupted when she moved forward and placed a rather hard, but promising kiss on his lips.

She rolled them over and soon Jon found himself on his back with her strangling his hips with her long naked legs. That sure was a surprise. No bottoms.

“I just need…uhm…” she tried to explain her sudden move.

“Yeah…sure…” he was barely able to bring out those words. He sure wouldn’t complain no matter how far this would go.

She kissed him again before her lips slowly travelled down his throat to his bare chest. Her hands stopped pressing down his shoulders and explored his broad chest. Jon moaned when she gently pinched his nipples and kissed her way down his abdomen. His abs trembled and he closed his eyes.

For a moment he hoped she would give him a blow job, but he realized he was wrong when suddenly all movement stopped.

He opened his eyes again and saw Kim sitting on top of him biting her bottom lip and fighting to hold back the tears.

He wrapped his arms around her waist and managed to sit up with her still strangling his hips. Softly he framed her face with his hands and pulled her close for a long gentle kiss.

He could feel her hard nipples pressing through the shirt she was wearing when she leaned into him. She needed him. Wanted him, but was still scared.

He searched her eyes after he broke the kiss and carefully raised the hem of the oversized shirt a little. She only hesitated a few seconds before raising her arms and let him pull the fabric over her head.

She shivered when his eyes travelled over her now naked body. Jon wrapped his arms around her and slowly laid her down on the mattress. He made sure his body was not covering her, remembering her nightmares after the incident as a teenager.

“Jon.” It wasn’t more than a whisper.

“Shhh…hon. Everything is ok.” He kissed her softly and could feel her relaxing a little under his kiss.

His mouth wandered down to her breast and sucked on her hard peaks softly. He was rewarded by a long deep moan.

When he tried to continue his path and work his way lower her arms circled around his shoulders. Kim guided him back to her breast. Jon chuckled.

“Like this?” he whispered and started to kiss and lick again.

“Yes.”

He could feel her losing herself more and more in his touch. She was pressing herself as close as possible to him and he could feel her juice wetting his skin as well.

While he was taking care of her, she whispered his name over and over again. It seemed to be like a mantra for her. To remind her it was still him.

After a while Jon stopped his action and softly brushed her blond hair from her heated face. He searched her eyes again.

“Hon?”

She locked her eyes with his and nodded at his unspoken question. Slowly Jon flexed his hips and entered her.

“Oh, Jon.” She sighed deeply and pulled him closer to her body.

“Ok?” he pressed through clenched teeth. It had been way too long for him. He wasn’t sure he would really last.

“Yes.” She whispered and rolled her hips. Jon groaned loudly. She would kill him.

Together they moved slowly while keeping their eyes locked. Soon they both found their sweet release.

Jon gasped for air and tried to find the strength to roll of Kim. But again her arms stopped him.

“I’m too heavy, Kimi.” he protested lightly.

“No, you’re not.” He looked up. Her voice sounded weird.

“Why are you crying?” He asked shocked.

“Oh my God, I hurt you. Oh God.” Jon moved off her and ran his hands through his hair.

“No, Jon. No. You didn’t hurt.” Kim sat up and kissed him. She could literally feel the panic in him.

“So, why the tears, when I didn’t?” He still wasn’t convinced.

“Because…” she stopped sniffing.

“Because you were so…loving and caring….patient…again.” His worries faded away.

“Kimi…” he tried to pull her into his arms.

“I don’t deserve you. You are so sweet.” The tears were running over her cheeks.

“Oh, Kimi….you deserve so much more, believe me. You are way too good for me.” He whispered into her ear and held her close while she cried.

Chapter 109

The next morning Kim and Jon entered the huge room, in which the hotel prepared a breakfast buffet for every one of the Bon Jovi family.

“Auntie Kim.” Jason raced towards her the minute she entered the room.

“Hi Jason. How are doing?” Kim smiled and hugged the boy dearly.

“I’m fine. There’s so much to see. The big wheel, the palace and we saw horses yesterday, lots of horses.” He jumped from one foot to another in excitement.

“That sounds great, baby.” Kim chuckled softly and was glad at the same time that he and the other children weren’t in the hotel when Jon and her had their big fight yesterday.

“Where are Fran and Rich?” Jon had scanned the room and couldn’t see them. A little worried he looked at David and Tico, but they only shrugged their shoulders. Dot and the other women shook their heads as well.

“Fran is still sleeping and Daddy didn’t wanna leave her alone,…uhm…you know…” Ava told them a little conspirative. Jason didn’t know about the last day events and it should stay like that.

“I see.” Kim nodded and Jon swallowed hard. She squeezed his hand softly.

“I will check on her later.”

“Yeah.” He nodded and busied himself at the buffet.

“Mom is sleeping a lot lately. Is that normal?” Jason asked her a little concerned.

Suddenly all the adults in the room where watching them. Kim sighed softly and kneeled down to look Jason in the eye. She know she couldn’t lie to him, he would be able to see through it immediately, he always does when somebody wasn’t telling the truth he had a radar for it. But she knew she had to spare some details.

“Yes, baby. It’s normal. And she will get easier exhausted and tired when the pregnancy progresses.”. She softly took his hands into hers to calm him when he looked even more worried after her comment. For him Fran was always the active and ever present mother. She never had to slow things down. It was a totally new concept to him. “

You know, that there is a baby in her. And that baby needs to eat, to drink and breath. And your mom has to do it all for the baby until he or she is born. It’s lots of work, so she needs to rest more.”

Jason looked at her with huge eyes.

“It was the same when you were still in her tummy. And everything turned out just fine.” Kim smiled when he nodded.

“Ok, if you say so, Auntie Kim.” It seems Kim destroyed any worries he had, because in the next second he walked over to the buffet to get some juice. Kim exhaled slowly.

“Good job.” Jon whispered when she sat down next to him.

“It’s easy. He believes every word I say, I never lied to him.” Kim answered in a low voice.

“You didn’t lie to him now.” Jon pointed out and handed her a cup of coffee.

“Yeah, I just left out the main details from yesterday.” Kim took a sip and sighed. It wasn’t lying, but it didn’t feel good either, but Jason was so protective of his mom that he would probably have a fit and attack Jon right in front of everyone in this room.

“Dad, dad, dad…..” Romeo rushed to Jon’s side.

“Yes, buddy?”

“I wanna ride in your boat.”

“We all wanna ride in your boat.” Jake corrected and pointed at the children in the room, who were paying very close attention to the conversation now.

“My boat? You know our boat is in Jersey.” Jon told his two youngest sons a little confused.

“No, not that boat. The boat here!” Romeo whined and pulled at Jon’s right arm.

“What are you talking about?” His father stared at him. He only had one boat. He used it to get out on the Navesink River from time to time.

“I think they mean the water taxi, you guys take every day to get to the venue.” Kim interjected.

“Yes, the boat!” Romeo said sternly.

“Oh,…uhm…well, I’m not sure you guys can ride with it. There is no real railing, you could fall into the water and we don’t fit all in there. It’s a small boat.”

“But dad, we are staying for a couple more weeks. We can split up into groups.” Jesse told him calmly. Jon shot him an angry look that made Kim giggle, but she turned serious again the next second when Jon glanced at her…at least she tried.

“Uhm….” Jon looked at Dorothea for help, but it seemed that she enjoyed it tremendously to see him squirm.

“What do you think, Do-ro-the-a.” Emphasizing her full name.

“Oh, I would  l-o-v-e  to take a boat ride.” She grinned at him evilly.

“I bet you would.” He said dryly. He looked at the girls on the opposite side of the table.

“I take it,  you ladies wanna take a boat ride too.”

“Of course, dad.” His daughter answered lightly annoyed before sipping at her tea.

“Of course, what was I thinking…” Jon mumbled to himself. Kim tried hard to laugh out loud when he got up and walked to the door. It wasn’t even closed yet, when they could hear Jon’s voice echoing through the corridor.

“MATT! Move your ass here, the kids wanna ride with that stupid water taxi. It was your fucking idea, so you will ride with them!”

The room exploded in laughter.

Chapter 108

Kim only had to knock once at the door to Jon’s suite and it was ripped open.

“How is she? Is the baby ok?” the words stumbled out of his mouth. Kim smiled.

“She is resting now and everything is fine. The baby calmed down. No worries.” She informed him while entering the huge living room.

“Oh thank God.” Jon sighed and sank down on the couch. Running his hands first trough his hair and then over his slightly pale face. Kim looked at him worried.

“Jon, are you ok?”

“Yeah,…no…I don’t know.” He really wasn’t himself. She sat down next to him.

“Gimme your wrist.” Kim told him.

“Kim, I’m fine.” He only protested lightly when she checked his pulse.

“Jon! Your heart is racing like after your morning training.” She was shocked and surprised at the same time.

“Yeah, not really surprising. Richie would have killed me if something would be wrong with Fran or the baby.” He said dryly.

“Don’t you think you are exaggerating a little?” Kim asked amused.

“No, I don’t!” he stated calm and very serious. She looked at him confused. He wasn’t kidding. He looked all serious.

“Kim, you have no idea what it means to Richie to have another baby. I’m not even sure Fran understands the dimension of this situation.”

“She knows he wanted another child, Jon.” He smiled slightly at her comment.

“Well, the whole world knows he wants another child. But I think you girls don’t understand how bad he really wanted it.” Kim blinked confused at him.

Jon took a deep breath and leaned forward to rest his elbows on his knees. He focused on the picture on the opposite wall hoping he would find the right words.

“Kim, since his divorce he was looking for a woman, who would have another child with him. And I know a couple times he’d hoped he found the right one. After Fran got pregnant, he wouldn’t stop talking about it. He already bought baby stuff.” Jon said amused.

Kim grinned. Jon continued more seriously.

“What I mean is that he’s not the normal excited and overjoyed father-to-be. He prayed, he begged, he demanded to have another child. He would have given his right arm to have another child. He would give up everything for it. Maybe not playing guitar, but truly touring with us.”

Kim just stared at him.

“Don’t get me wrong, honey. He adores Ava and loves Jason. And I’m sure sooner or later he will talk with Fran about adopting Jason, so he will be financially secured, but he is not…”

“…is biological son.” Kim finished his sentence. Jon nodded.

“He always wanted a son. And I know he is praying right now that the baby is a boy, even though he will love and spoil another daughter as much as Ava. But after his dad died the feeling grew much stronger. It’s like he needs to know the name Sambora will continue.”

“Wow.” Kim had no idea what else to say.

“Yeah, I had no idea how bad he really wanted another baby until shortly before we got him into rehab.”

Jon got up and walked around in the spacious room unsettled.

“I found him in his house in LA and somehow managed to slowly get the alcohol out of him. He broke down and spilled everything. That the only reason he still has to live is Ava, she is his little angel, that everything else is fucked up, that he will never hold another baby in his arms, that he envies me for having four kids. He was mad and somehow….proud and happy for me at the time. It was the weirdest conversation I  e-v-e-r  had with him…and that means a lot.” He finished dryly.

Kim stared at him. She had no idea that Richie was that down emotionally. Jon sat down next to her again.

“You saw him when Fran told him about the baby. He is high ever since….and if I, with my stupid behaviour, would have caused any damage…he …he would have….” Jon swallowed hard.

“Stop it, ok?” Kim squeezed his hand lightly and Jon took a deep breath.

“Feeling any better?” she asked after a while and checking his pulse again. She was relieved it was slowly going back to normal.

“Yeah. I just want a glass of wine and relax tonight.” He got to his feet and walked over to the bar.

“I don’t think wine is a really good idea right now.” She told him softly when he grabbed the bottle of white wine. His movement stopped and he turned around to her.

“You gotta be kidding me?!” He groaned when she shook her head no. Kim chuckled and slowly got closer to him and wrapped her arms around his neck. She exhaled deeply and forced herself to stay calm when he carefully wrapped his arms around her waist. Her head rested on his chest and she could hear the soft monotone beat of his heart.

“How about we order some food, snuggle up in bed and watch a movie. You need to relax, you have a show tomorrow and a couple more this week.” She asked after a while and raised her head to look at him.

He smiled softly. He’d hoped she would be able to let him closer. He knew he had a lot to make up for. She wouldn’t forget his behaviour that easily. Even though she didn’t mentioned it again after they talked in the afternoon.

“Ok, sounds good.” He whispered and slowly leaned forward to press a short, soft kiss on her lips.

She only tensed lightly and stayed in his arms.